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This Is The End
June 4, 2012 | 1:33 AM | 0 candie blossom
oh well , here i am :)i'm going to share bout my past 6 months.. how I suffered and how I survived.. i met a man named NW.. i ignored him for 2 times in th 2011, but i dont know why he keep finding me and wanna make friends. well he came to me again on 28th October, in tionghua festival in cafee nineteen.. that time is the 3rd times he came to me, he used to inbox me. of course i got human's heart and i know that it's my bad always ignore him.. so i gave a chance to him and we introduced.. oh well he's such an annoying big fat tall huge large MAN. i dont like that he always disturbs me! OH HELL! he got asked me out for twice i guess :/ but i said NO! heelllooooo i dont hangout with strangers!! after that, he keep asking me out again.. i said oh well , okay. at that time i got no car to go to mall to hangout with my bestie. so i used him, LOL! i said picked me go to mall, he said okay and wait. there he came...  and that's how his face look like, LOL! okay, after that i said thanks, he replied no probs. maybe since then our friendship get abit closer. hahahhaha when he didnt text me, i feel there's something wrong. but IDC! but he always comes find me .. and until he asked me out to hangout with his friends, suddenly i got a good feelin with him, HAHAHA he dressed so cool, he's full of perfume smell, OMG i like guys who uses perfumes! ahahaha ~ he asked me to go out for a dinner, okay... and the most important is he introduced me to his friends! at that time i think he's serious with me :/ then several times we got hangout alot... i realized i like him, he's kind to me actually.. but when something good happened,always come the bad things too! my junior fought with me, he said that i took away his boyfriend. OMG! DID I ???? she said coz of me, they broke up. OH HELL! she said to me that he liked to play girls.. well, i'm in 2 minds at that time.. i'm trying not to hear what she said.. but once upon a time, i asked him bout this rumor.. well he explained that this girl's mom like him and wnant them together.. but NW just take her as a lil sister... yeah at that time i believed him .. okaaayyy, lets skip it then... we both started walk like couple, we do eat together, hands by hands, and he like to hug me.. OMG hihihi *blush* i had superb sweet memories at that time :) 
hehehehehe <3
we go eat at RM. FATMAWATI near the chaikue panas around the matahari mall , he eats alot!!!!!
wuaaoooo!
i enjoyed my moments with him :D
then when i got free time, i made cakes for him..
i made a low sugar chocolate cupcakes for him...
he's so fat and i dont want him got diabetes..
i made this with full of love, LOL
 but too bad that i didnt take a together pic with him ;( but i got took the hands XD ahahahahah !!! only this i got.. we cant took a face pic together coz we are not a couple... we're more than friends, but not a couple but we do and act like we are in a relationship :')  now he's gone and with another woman and left me...) and the first dinner we ate steamboat in Hotel Aston , and we also had our LAST DINNER in Hotel Aston too ;( aww i wanna cry already T^T  even i asked him to accompany me to eat, he didnt want to... ;( when he ate this last dinner with me , he always play his blackberry.. he said that he is having chats with his siblings, BUT WHO THE HELL WILL BELIEVE! -______- then until the valentine's day came... i ordered 9 cupcakes for him... before this valentine, what i chat to him, he so seldom reply.. and most of the times he just read.. i ordered these cupcakes and brought them to his house...  he shocked when see me come .. he only said thanks.. his parents look at us and smiled ... well i got talked with his mom, so kind :) i didnt know why he wanted me to go home faster.. i wanna asked him to dinner coz it's valentine!!! and he got promise me that he'll bring me for dinner.. but when i asked , he refused... he said he's tired and just wanna stayed at home.. i said okay, i know that after work he must be so tired... when i'm going back home and said to his parents, his dad asked : "dont u wanna come along with him?? he's going out after washed his car with his friends. let him bring you" OH MY GOD!!!!! He's lying, and his father telling me th truth :/ quite ridiculous! and NOT FUNNY! damn.. i dont know what happened next... i always wanna contact him, but he always ignored me.. i knew... he's changed , he liked another girl ... then after that time, he got type to me and said that "i got no feeling to you anymore, stop finding me" WHAT ???!!! since that time when i went to mall i always see him with different girls... and i just realized that the rumors are true that he's a playboy.. but until now i still believe in him.. coz he ever said that he change to get the better one and match for his life.. am i not perfect for you ?? ;( please dont ever said that i'm a good girl.. If i'm good enough, why you still dont want me?? ;( awwwww T^T and his friends helped him to lie to me too ... well i knew laaa ~ you guys are friends, and ME, just a strangers... okay then , i got no comments..  i bought those couple bears for ME and HIM ... but until now I didnt give to him... coz we are not couple ... too sad ;( and he got bought me Mango and Zara clothes... i didnt wear it... you know what??? COZ I DONT LIKE THE MODEL!!! IT'S NOT SUIT FOR ME! i dare to said that now coz i've been holding since the time you gave me.. I swear those are not my taste!!! especially the Mango one , damn.. it's really an ugly one! sorry if i lied that i pretend to like those... it' only not to hurt you! and i dont know that is he still use my angrybirds stuffs ??? i gave him alot of angrybirds.. like this on for his PC monitor.. 
and got another like drinking cup, pocket, and blahblah...
i like to buy him angrybirds stuffs coz he likes angrybirds so much :D
see ??? i still remember what he like and what he dislike..
he cannot eat shrimp/prawns, lobster or some kind like that coz he's allergic...
his face will appear red red things..
awww :'(
i dont know when i can see him again ...
I MISS HIM actually ....
and i made him a birthday cake on 27th May 2012 ..
his birthday!!!!
i made this cake by myself :')
i phoned him and cried when said Happy Birthday to him...
hahahah, i like to cry T^T
i said i want to gove him something and i'll go to his house..
but he said he will come to my house to take ..
okay then..
he came around 10+ p.m with his friends H & R ..
i cant hold my emotions..
i cried , aww ! how ashamed! T^T
he said that stop giving him things..
okay, i'll really stop now..
it's HURT ME SO MUCH!!!
well, my sweetest memory is on 3rd January 2012 with NW :')
and thru these suffering months, until today,
3rd June 2012 .... I saw the last time he together with a girl and his sister + niece...
i dont wanna see anymore...
so i decided not to care anyhting...
already 6 months and it's enough!
i cant hate you, i just can wish you DIE SOON!!
yeah that's all i want!
i care bout you, i told you not to drink ice things, over sugar, and blahblah..
coz you are over-weight!!!
i care , you know???
and i dont know whether the girl now got pay attention to you ???
does SHE know everything ?????????
does SHE cook for you when you are sick??
does SHE sushi for you ??
does SHE bring liangteh for you ???
does SHE always make cakes for you ???
does SHE do like I did ????
okay, ENOUGH!
Thanks to you, thank you for ever hold my hands and make these bitter sweetness for me :')
I appreciate it so much ...
I got a song that suit for me right now ....
梁靜茹 - 可惜不是你
這一刻 突然覺得好熟悉 像昨天 今天同時在放映
我這句語氣 原來好像你 不就是我們愛過的證據 差一點 騙了自己騙了你 愛與被愛不一定成正比 我知道被疼是一種運氣 但我無法完全交出自己 努力為你改變 卻變不了 預留的伏線 以為在你身邊 那也算永遠 彷彿還是昨天 可是昨天 已非常遙遠 但閉上我雙眼 我還看得見 可惜不是你 陪我到最後 曾一起走卻走失那路口 感謝那是你 牽過我的手 還能感受那溫柔 那一段 我們曾心貼著心 (我想我更有權力關心你) 可能你 已走進別人風景 多希望 也有 星光的投影 努力為你改變 卻變不了 預留的伏線 以為在你身邊 那也算永遠 彷彿還是昨天 可是昨天 已非常遙遠 但閉上我雙眼 我還看得見 可惜不是你 陪我到最後 曾一起走卻走失那路口 感謝那是你 牽過我的手 還能感受那溫柔 感謝那是你 牽過我的手 還能溫暖我胸口 可惜不是你 這一刻 突然覺得好熟悉 像昨天 今天同時在放映 我這句語氣 原來好像你 不就是我們愛過的證據 差一點騙了自己騙了你 愛與被愛不一定成正比 我知道被疼是一種運氣 但我無法完全交出自己 努力為你改變 卻變不了 預留的伏線 以為在你身邊 那也算永遠 彷彿還是昨天 可是昨天 已非常遙遠 但閉上我雙眼 我還看得見 可惜不是你 陪我到最後 曾一起走卻走失那路口 感謝那是你 牽過我的手 還能感受那溫柔 那一段 我們曾心貼著心 我想我更有權利關心你 可能你 已走進別人風景 多希望 也有 星光的投影 努力為你改變 卻變不了 預留的伏線 以為在你身邊 那也算永遠 彷彿還是昨天 可是昨天 已非常遙遠 但閉上我雙眼 我還看得見 可惜不是你 陪我到最後 曾一起走卻走失那路口 感謝那是你 牽過我的手 還能感受那溫柔 可惜不是你 陪我到最後 曾一起走卻走失那路口 感謝那是你 牽過我的手 還能感受那溫柔 感謝那是你 牽過我的手
還能溫暖我胸口
and i know that our love and memories cant back anymore..
so i got another songs for you..
i like this song so much!!!
so real andf touching T^T
雲朵漂浮在藍藍的天空 那時的你說 要和我手牽手 一起走到時間的盡頭 從此以後我都不敢抬頭看 彷彿我的天空失去了顏色 從那一天起 我忘記了呼吸 眼淚啊永遠不再 不再哭泣 我們的愛 過了就不再回來 直到現在我還默默的等待 我們的愛 我明白 已變成你的負擔 只是永遠 我都放不開 最後的溫暖 你給的溫暖 不要再問你是否愛我 現在我想要自由天空 遠離開這被綑綁的世界 不再寂寞 .... 
Thankyou NW :)
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